Disappointment...
I've never been so disappointed with a certain somebody in my life! Not this badly...
Had a conversation with Guy #1 2 nights back and it turned into a disaster simply because I told him I didn't wanna talk about "Us" but he insisted. Moreover, I was feeling so depressed that day having to console many classmates due to discouraging results. I guess the feeling of sadness sunked into me as well. And it was bad. So I needed someone to talk to. Guy #2 called that night to ask about my results and we spoke for awhile. I did tell him that I wasn't too happy and he too could tell from the sound of my voice. We couldn't talk for long simply because he's in Bkt Tinggi. We hung up after about 15 minutes.
At that time, I really needed a friend. There was simply too much of negativity for me to handle so I decided to pop up my MSN hoping to find a friend to speak to.
Guy#1 msged. We spoke bout the usual stuff... His day spent with his Penang Chic.. yadda yadda yadda....
And then, he invited me out on Wednesday but I declined as I didn't feel like committing to anything at that time. But he took it wrongly. He asked if it was because of what he did last week (e.g hugging and kissing) which made me feel uncomfortable. In my heart, I was like "Oh Gosh Pls.....!!! Don't Start!!!) I seriously had enough of that conversation and it definitely ain't what he did which made me decline. I was simply feeling like shit at that time. So anyway, he pushed it further by saying that from now on, he will keep his hands to himself bla bla bla bla.........
I asked him a few times if we can just not talk about "Us" for just that night.. but he went on and on and on.. So i just listened. I was completely lost for words.
Come on!!! Its always him who get things started and always have his way around. I'm so sick and tired of talking about us because he just so Blardee Fake. He opens and shuts the door as he likes and complains that I don't leave the door open for him as friends..... Sigh....
I kept complete silence that night. Just staring at the computer screen and replying "Ok then.." or "Fine" or "Up to u". I was simply sick and tired of it... and I'm just so disappointed at him...
You know, I love him. I admit I do. And it hurts so much more to be disappointed with someone whom you love but yet treats you like trash. I love him and I always will be there to lend a helping hand if he needs one but I know I can never look at him the same way again. Sigh... I'm so disappointed with him... I don't know how else to explain...
The disappointment is way too big...
I'm missing so many people right now..... Sighh
-Lynn-
Had a conversation with Guy #1 2 nights back and it turned into a disaster simply because I told him I didn't wanna talk about "Us" but he insisted. Moreover, I was feeling so depressed that day having to console many classmates due to discouraging results. I guess the feeling of sadness sunked into me as well. And it was bad. So I needed someone to talk to. Guy #2 called that night to ask about my results and we spoke for awhile. I did tell him that I wasn't too happy and he too could tell from the sound of my voice. We couldn't talk for long simply because he's in Bkt Tinggi. We hung up after about 15 minutes.
At that time, I really needed a friend. There was simply too much of negativity for me to handle so I decided to pop up my MSN hoping to find a friend to speak to.
Guy#1 msged. We spoke bout the usual stuff... His day spent with his Penang Chic.. yadda yadda yadda....
And then, he invited me out on Wednesday but I declined as I didn't feel like committing to anything at that time. But he took it wrongly. He asked if it was because of what he did last week (e.g hugging and kissing) which made me feel uncomfortable. In my heart, I was like "Oh Gosh Pls.....!!! Don't Start!!!) I seriously had enough of that conversation and it definitely ain't what he did which made me decline. I was simply feeling like shit at that time. So anyway, he pushed it further by saying that from now on, he will keep his hands to himself bla bla bla bla.........
I asked him a few times if we can just not talk about "Us" for just that night.. but he went on and on and on.. So i just listened. I was completely lost for words.
Come on!!! Its always him who get things started and always have his way around. I'm so sick and tired of talking about us because he just so Blardee Fake. He opens and shuts the door as he likes and complains that I don't leave the door open for him as friends..... Sigh....
I kept complete silence that night. Just staring at the computer screen and replying "Ok then.." or "Fine" or "Up to u". I was simply sick and tired of it... and I'm just so disappointed at him...
You know, I love him. I admit I do. And it hurts so much more to be disappointed with someone whom you love but yet treats you like trash. I love him and I always will be there to lend a helping hand if he needs one but I know I can never look at him the same way again. Sigh... I'm so disappointed with him... I don't know how else to explain...
The disappointment is way too big...
I'm missing so many people right now..... Sighh
-Lynn-
posted by *Lynn* at 8:17 PM
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